Friday, September 10, 2010

Is it over?

It has been over a month now since I stopped drinking pop. I haven't touched it since, not even one single sip. Now I'm wondering... will I ever have it again? Is it like alcohol... if I have any it will cause a horrible slide down the the bottom of where I started? I still crave it sometimes, I gaze longingly at my husbands ice cold mountain dew... and then I chug a huge glass of water like I'm dying.

On a pathetic note... I have not been working out much. Actually, twice now that I've gotten on the elliptical out of the last three times I've worked out, I had to stop around 15 minutes because I feel like I'm going to pass out. I'm not sure what is causing this. I have enough water and food beforehand... and I know I can do about 25 minutes now... but things really started to get a little hazy and I didn't want to take any chances. It makes me feel like such a failure, and then it also causes my motivation to go and do it again even lower than it normally is. I would like to say I'm going to do the "30 Day Shred" DVD tomorrow morning after Audrey has breakfast... but odds are I won't... Lets see if I can prove myself wrong! :)

Thursday, September 2, 2010

It's exhausting

Two days straight I've worked out in the office fitness room. Yesterday I felt like I was going to pass out, so I only made it to 17 minutes on the elliptical... but pushed myself to still do 100 crunches, I figured if I passed out, I was already laying on the floor, lol! Today I made it to my personal goal for the moment of 25 minutes and 100 crunches. I'm hoping to get to 30 minutes within another week or two. Tomorrow my workout buddy and I have decided to take a brisk walk outside during the lovely weather that has been forecasted.
I have the "30 Day Shred" DVD at home, only tried it once, I just can't seem to push myself to workout once at home with sunshine. I've had a co-worker borrow it, and then go out and buy her own copy, and has now been doing it for over two weeks with some slight results... but I can't seem to do it when I've owned the DVD for months! Maybe I will get some guts to do it over the weekend... I am in better shape than I was when I first attempted it and couldn't even get through the whole 30 minutes!

Still no pop... I wonder when I will ever allow myself to have it again, I'm almost afraid to... like it will be a failure if I give in, even after so long...